POETRY SUICIDE

I've got rhyming thoughts in my head

It's so random "nakakaloka" i said

I picked up my phone and went straight to write messages

I started typing when suddenly my phone went dead

So i searched for a white paper and a clear pen

But all i got was a food receipt and a pencil with a dent

I began writing what's on my mind

Then the pencil's lead got left behind

Few more lines to go but i was getting frantic by the minute

A shining blade was at sight and i was desperate to end it

I cut through my wrist until the pale red ink appeared

I got the last line done but not only that was finished

"If there's a will, there's a way, but not always you should find the will to make a way,

There are some things we should let go before it kills you or gives you pain that would stay?"

I understand and smiled as i read the last few lines and closed my eyes

Then i saw a bright light followed by a long beep there goes my lifeline....

It Was February

originally this was posted from my facebook account..anyway..=)

Have you met November and December? They are seemingly alike but in reality they have different worlds. November is so chill doing whatever comes to mind, it ends up so well that everyone just applauds and smile. December on the other hand pretty much do stupid things, and do them very well that makes everyone wonder is it for real or some crazy act of lies. November i guess is normal, likes this, dislikes that, favorites this and enjoys life the way it should be. December is a bit weird dislikes this, likes none of that, favorites solidarity and lives the chaotic way of life.
Different worlds, different personalities, but at one point they collide, as the moon overlaps the sun, they both fell into a deep slumber, waking up in a dream that they find so real. Exchange of pleasantries as they met up in a dark room, seeing no one else but only each other. Hi December, said November heartbeats off the grid with a smile stuck on each other. Hello November, said December then clumsily trips and fell on the ground. Somehow they fell for each other and finds themselves almost always together. Perfect moments no one could ever describe, a love so bizarre no words could define.
Time passed by like it would go on forever, but their differences caught up with each other. Their differences seem to make the dream they are in slowly shatter.
The dream is falling apart do you know what's gonna happen after? Well i don't know yet but these might be the possible matters.
Will December and November save the dream before it totally shatters? Or will they just let it fall and wake from their deep slumber and live lives like they never met each other? Or will November and December after the dream shatters could find each other even if their worlds don't match together and in the real world would live happily ever after or happily never after?.,i do wonder....

You Got Me?

I walked around the corner
And saw you at the other side
'Accidentally, our eyes met on that same line
I hurriedly put on just a half smile

I don't know why but it pierced my heart
It went so deep like it's tearing apart
Your eyes speak clearly
Telling don't even try

I tried to find a good reason why
An answer that led me to deny
Deny that i like you like it's all a lie
My heart screams your name

I guess I'm going insane........

...oh dearness...why oh why do you have to look....it makes me wonder much i can't sleep...
this is so freakin hard...just a few more days,,,....
it will all fade away....will it be good or bad...
hay............

Sana

This isn't mine.....i was just searching my name at Google because i deactivated my facebook account and i saw entries with my name and tried to figure if it was me or someone else...

well the result...it was me..a friend uhm borrowed a picture i took and i stumbled over her page and saw this instead....

oh well..

Sana

The Red Line

it's broken...
but i won't tell what....
oh and here's something new..
(it's not good cause i didnt made it in one sitting)

It starts from side to side
Slowly drops of blood flow by
It might leave you a scar
Think twice before you go that far

A knife or scissors, could be a blade or a cutter
Whatever you use, it doesn't really matter
As long as it could cut the skin
And it could go deep within

It's commonly just a line
But some do it with names
Some also go creative
Doing it with stuff and faces

There's so many reasons why a cut is done
Life's pressure, problems and i know another one
Its those got hurt cause of giving too much love
And just resorted to literally keep bleeding love

Stop!

..just something from the past.....

Kapag ako'y iyong iniwan
Hindi kita susumbatan
Pagkat ito ang nilalaman
Nang puso mong nahihirapan

Matagal na rin kitang kasama
Gusto mo ba talagang wakasan na
Matagal nating pinagsamahan
Sayo'y ganun na lang ba

Ngunit iyong pagkatandaan
Kahit ako'y iyong nilisan
Pagmamahal ko'y walang hanggan
Dadalhin ko hanggang kamatayan

At sa iyong pamamaalam
Ay lubusan kong dinaramdam
Ngunit wag mo sanang kalimutan
Na ako'y minsan ay dumaan

Sa buhay mong makahulugan
Na buong puso kong pinasan
Ika'y aking hihintayin
Sa langit ako'y nakabitin

At sa iyong pagdating
Matatanaw mo ko ng tingin
Mahal kita wag mo kong iwan
Dahil kapalit nito'y aking kasawian,


hmm...every bit of my poems are personal...
i guess there's only a few that isn't....
i am slowly reverting back to my old ways....
one more step, then i'll be put into the test...
life right now just make me wanna cut my wrist...................
hahahahahaha.....

Salisi

(this one is all fun, no harm intended)
it's in Filipino and it's about how my favorite gang got their name...

Kamusta mga nilalang sa mundo
Iilan lang po makakabasa nito
Tungkol po ito sa gang na binanggit ko
Storya po nang pangalan nila laman nito

Hindi ko po alam buong detalye
Kaya pagpasensyahan kung may mali
Paki korek ako pagkabasa nito
Para maging maliwanag sa mga tao

Ibabalik ko kayo sa buwan ng Setyembre
Hindi po ako kasama nung ito'y nangyare
May fieldtrip noon ang four two
Subject na Rizal ang dahilan nito

Sa paaralan ang meeting place nila
Hindi sa loob, sa labas lang ha
Dalawang jeep ang sasakyang dala
Isa'y maganda, isa'y di kaaya-aya


Di pa malaman kung san sasakay sila
Kaya ginawa ng isa dumeretso na lang sa maganda
Tila ba nasalisihan ang eksena
Ang kulit pwedeng pang komedya

Di ko na to mapapahaba pa
Basta Salisi gang pangalan nila
Sa susunod na lang na tula mambabasa
Nais ko na kasi ulit magpakatulala