POETRY SUICIDE

I've got rhyming thoughts in my head

It's so random "nakakaloka" i said

I picked up my phone and went straight to write messages

I started typing when suddenly my phone went dead

So i searched for a white paper and a clear pen

But all i got was a food receipt and a pencil with a dent

I began writing what's on my mind

Then the pencil's lead got left behind

Few more lines to go but i was getting frantic by the minute

A shining blade was at sight and i was desperate to end it

I cut through my wrist until the pale red ink appeared

I got the last line done but not only that was finished

"If there's a will, there's a way, but not always you should find the will to make a way,

There are some things we should let go before it kills you or gives you pain that would stay?"

I understand and smiled as i read the last few lines and closed my eyes

Then i saw a bright light followed by a long beep there goes my lifeline....

It Was February

originally this was posted from my facebook account..anyway..=)

Have you met November and December? They are seemingly alike but in reality they have different worlds. November is so chill doing whatever comes to mind, it ends up so well that everyone just applauds and smile. December on the other hand pretty much do stupid things, and do them very well that makes everyone wonder is it for real or some crazy act of lies. November i guess is normal, likes this, dislikes that, favorites this and enjoys life the way it should be. December is a bit weird dislikes this, likes none of that, favorites solidarity and lives the chaotic way of life.
Different worlds, different personalities, but at one point they collide, as the moon overlaps the sun, they both fell into a deep slumber, waking up in a dream that they find so real. Exchange of pleasantries as they met up in a dark room, seeing no one else but only each other. Hi December, said November heartbeats off the grid with a smile stuck on each other. Hello November, said December then clumsily trips and fell on the ground. Somehow they fell for each other and finds themselves almost always together. Perfect moments no one could ever describe, a love so bizarre no words could define.
Time passed by like it would go on forever, but their differences caught up with each other. Their differences seem to make the dream they are in slowly shatter.
The dream is falling apart do you know what's gonna happen after? Well i don't know yet but these might be the possible matters.
Will December and November save the dream before it totally shatters? Or will they just let it fall and wake from their deep slumber and live lives like they never met each other? Or will November and December after the dream shatters could find each other even if their worlds don't match together and in the real world would live happily ever after or happily never after?.,i do wonder....

You Got Me?

I walked around the corner
And saw you at the other side
'Accidentally, our eyes met on that same line
I hurriedly put on just a half smile

I don't know why but it pierced my heart
It went so deep like it's tearing apart
Your eyes speak clearly
Telling don't even try

I tried to find a good reason why
An answer that led me to deny
Deny that i like you like it's all a lie
My heart screams your name

I guess I'm going insane........

...oh dearness...why oh why do you have to look....it makes me wonder much i can't sleep...
this is so freakin hard...just a few more days,,,....
it will all fade away....will it be good or bad...
hay............

Sana

This isn't mine.....i was just searching my name at Google because i deactivated my facebook account and i saw entries with my name and tried to figure if it was me or someone else...

well the result...it was me..a friend uhm borrowed a picture i took and i stumbled over her page and saw this instead....

oh well..

Sana